I’ve been a Christian my whole life, and what I used to always REALLY struggle with was the fact that no matter how hard I TRIED to be “good,” I would always mess up. Going to church and reading the Bible can sometimes highlight the many ways in which we sin every single day. The many ways we aren’t worthy. The many ways we don’t deserve anything good. It used to get me so discouraged, and I would kinda give up for awhile bc I couldn’t do things “right.” I felt like I must be such a disappointment to God- I cuss sometimes, I lie sometimes, I get drunk sometimes, I’m selfish sometimes, I’m lustful sometimes. I thought I should quit trying, bc even when I tried my hardest, I still failed miserably. What is IMPERATIVE to understand is that God knows how bad we mess up and loves us no matter what. All of the heroes in the Bible were extremely flawed people - I think God did that on purpose. You don’t need to be perfect in order to be loved and accepted by Him or to do amazing work in the world for Him. The more broken you are, the more he can work through you. I think of it like this- if my mom, dad, friends, and family can love me to pieces knowing all the mistakes I’ve made and bad habits I have- then God surely can and does. My advice is keep the focus on Jesus, on how you can help and love others, and focus less on being mad at yourself for your own shortcomings. Just wanted to share that bc it was a huge stumbling block for me for YEARS