My doctor prescribed them to me when I was “depressed” (looking back now it was just understandable stress, from loss of employment and a kid on the way, but having a mental break down in the room lands you an SSRI in an instant) I knew nothing of the medications but just wanted relief. It worked. After a few weeks, I felt no stress, no worries, I could function again. I thought my gosh what a miracle. Nothing in my life was different but the weight was now weightless. Then a month or two went by and I soon realized when I laughed. It was mechanical. When I smiled it was a function. I no longer felt the weight of the world but at the cost of no longer feeling any sense of a anything. I could feel no joy, no happiness, no anger, no stress, no sadness, no affection. I was numb to absolutely everything. Could I still function. Absolutely. With ease. But the cost was too great. I threw the bottle out and never touched them again. It took months for it to wear off maybe even a year to get back to full emotions, and I had only talent them for maybe 6 months. The pills offered no solutions, it was just a bandaid, worse than that really, it’s honestly the same as alcohol or drug addictions except for the fact you can function without outward side effect ions. All the side effects are internal. Life is so hard no doubt. But these drugs are no solution. Get honest help. Find actually solutions to your problems and solutions should never come down to your emotions. Emotions are fleeting. They are necessary for life’s experiences, they are often helpful in warning you something is wrong or right but be wary. “The heart is deceitful above all things” and incurable. You don’t ask God to change your heart, you ask for a new one. One that is designed after his own heart of righteousness. He will gladly provide. “You have not because you ask not”. Take a deep breath and ask for his help, it’s not a get out of jail free card but if you hand it all too him. You will find peace and a clear mind to face what’s before you. He is the healer you are looking for.
My doctor prescribed them to me when I was “depressed” (looking back now it was just understandable stress, from loss of employment and a kid on the way, but having a mental break down in the room lands you an SSRI in an instant) I knew nothing of the medications but just wanted relief. It worked. After a few weeks, I felt no stress, no worries, I could function again. I thought my gosh what a miracle. Nothing in my life was different but the weight was now weightless. Then a month or two went by and I soon realized when I laughed. It was mechanical. When I smiled it was a function. I no longer felt the weight of the world but at the cost of no longer feeling any sense of a anything. I could feel no joy, no happiness, no anger, no stress, no sadness, no affection. I was numb to absolutely everything. Could I still function. Absolutely. With ease. But the cost was too great. I threw the bottle out and never touched them again. It took months for it to wear off maybe even a year to get back to full emotions, and I had only talent them for maybe 6 months. The pills offered no solutions, it was just a bandaid, worse than that really, it’s honestly the same as alcohol or drug addictions except for the fact you can function without outward side effect ions. All the side effects are internal. Life is so hard no doubt. But these drugs are no solution. Get honest help. Find actually solutions to your problems and solutions should never come down to your emotions. Emotions are fleeting. They are necessary for life’s experiences, they are often helpful in warning you something is wrong or right but be wary. “The heart is deceitful above all things” and incurable. You don’t ask God to change your heart, you ask for a new one. One that is designed after his own heart of righteousness. He will gladly provide. “You have not because you ask not”. Take a deep breath and ask for his help, it’s not a get out of jail free card but if you hand it all too him. You will find peace and a clear mind to face what’s before you. He is the healer you are looking for.