So grateful that I found this community which led me to finding God, because without that I dont know how I would have gotten through today.
First I found out my cat passed away, which already hurt...but then minutes after that, my grandfather ive taken care of for 12 years took his last breath and I lost him too. The only thing that kept me from shattering was knowing hes been suffering for a long time and now that suffering is over. I really wanted to numb the pain with a bottle - but i went to an AA meeting instead.
It still doesnt feel real. 😔
Edit - just want to add since several people have already said get another cat - we have other cats, 3 actually, and 1 is with me now (the brother of the one that passed actually) so getting another one isn't really what I need. But thank you for the suggestion.
I absolutely love my cat. My cat loves me. She greets me when I get home, always hangs out with me, never more than 20 feet away, even if I’m out mowing the yard. She is my shadow and lays with me all the time. It gets annoying, especially if I’m trying to work or play on my flight simulator setup. I feel awful when I shoo her away but then call her back when she walks away all sad. Cats are awesome, I’m sorry you lost your friend 😭and close grandfather, I could also write a novel on how awesome grandparents are. 😭 I’m sorry friend