I did the same journey you did except that I was an athiest humanist.
But somehow I did it slower and never had the horrible single moment of realisation. My being let down by humanity was done in manageable portions.
Nevertheless, the defence of the image of the world and of authority that you describe is exactly what I see in normies like my wife. I can't redpill her because the fall from her current perch of socialist ideas is so far it might shatter her and she rejects evidence instead, up to the point that she is vaxxed and boosted even though I could talk for hours about the mechanisms of the vax.
It's the case that people protect their worldview to the point of their own destruction simply to avoid the pain and disappointment of the realisation how flawed people are.
One thing though, the subconsious knows all, and I have been generally much happier since my conscious admitted that my subconscious was right about everything. Cog dis is super toxic to mind and body.
Here's an example of such cog dis:
There's some sort of loop with socialism and authority.
1 people are so rubbish that the gov has to police them and redistribute wealth.
gov is made up of people.
crunch!
My subconscious has always choked on this. You have to patch it by saying that gov is made up of special wise selfless people. Religion can have the same pattern problems with clergy.
I did the same journey you did except that I was an athiest humanist.
But somehow I did it slower and never had the horrible single moment of realisation. My being let down by humanity was done in manageable portions.
Nevertheless, the defence of the image of the world and of authority that you describe is exactly what I see in normies like my wife. I can't redpill her because the fall from her current perch of socialist ideas is so far it might shatter her and she rejects evidence instead, up to the point that she is vaxxed and boosted even though I could talk for hours about the mechanisms of the vax.
It's the case that people protect their worldview to the point of their own destruction simply to avoid the pain and disappointment of the realisation how flawed people are.
One thing though, the subconsious knows all, and I have been generally much happier since my conscious admitted that my subconscious was right about everything. Cog dis is super toxic to mind and body.
Here's an example of such cog dis:
There's some sort of loop with socialism and authority.
1 people are so rubbish that the gov has to police them and redistribute wealth.
crunch!
My subconscious has always choked on this. You have to patch it by saying that gov is made up of special wise selfless people. Religion can have the same pattern problems with clergy.
Yes, I didn't believe in evil.
I had to be shown.