I only mean sheep in the sense that you're not a wolf. That's it.

Yes, here we use anonymous handles, but I think all of us know our true identity can be easily tracked, but we come to exchange our perspectives anyway.

So perfect in the way you stated it. It's how I feel too - I decided that I refused to be afraid... I can't have the impact I want to unless I put myself out there, is what I came to. I preferred my days of lurking and being social or popular isn't a quality of mine.... but if something I share or express can help or educate or inform just one person, I'm contributing and impacting in a way that is more meaningful and lasting. Knowing and learning for yourself is one thing and positive on its own, but taking that next step to start posting was important for me. I had to make myself do it as a test, to just be me and not remain hidden because I'm too afraid to come off wrong or sound stupid or be disliked or flamed or just get confusion or total indifference as the response to my attempts to contribute. I can't be afraid to put myself out there - and I guess maybe other people or everybody has similar stuff happen too, but maybe it just bothers me worse and kept me from jumping in to participate in discussion for a long while. Then again maybe I have all that wrong and I'm just a fucking clown.

Ultimately I think if I'm going to try and hang out here and see where it all goes, and if people get something out of what I try and express, and it comes from the right place and my heart is in it which I know it is, I feel like I should try. So what if I'm a clown..even if just one person gets a good idea or another window through which to see some part of all that's going on. That's impactful and important... maybe even necessary?

I'm definitely not a researcher by any means, I shoot from the hip way too much and drone like a fridge and my writing is too emotive and personal like it was a text message... knowing all that I should probably abstain a lot more....

but if just one person sends a comment thanking you or admiring your contribution suddenly all that drops off and you feel good about yourself in a way you can't get just fact finding and lurking. It is probably the same feeling if you have people in your real life with whom you can actively share what you've learned here (I don't really, not sure if others do)

Maybe we’re more like shepherds, trading information and knowledge about the true wolves in the hopes of saving the sheep.

I think you're pulling on the right thread... and maybe what I'm describing is sort of the process of going from "sheep" to "shepherd", if you will. Once you've gleaned enough and begun to find some truth shards that fit together with others so that you piece together a whole section, just like doing a puzzle, I think innately we all have the desire to try and share that with others. Sooner or later it doesn't feel right just discovering these truths for yourself and getting better at the skills involved - making the connections and recognizing the patterns and logical thinking and so forth - and you feel like you somehow should share what you've learned. Keeping the "truth" for yourself isn't what people are supposed to do when they know it, is it?

That is maybe the most fundamental difference between us and the baddies, isn't it? We don't want to hide what we know - in fact we want to emulate Q, or Trump, or any other insider who has had enough courage and bravery to step forward and tell the truth. There are definitely consequences to doing this, no matter where you are in life, but I guess the whole point is to try and look past the fear.

I'm thinking through this as I go so sorry if it isn't coming out quite right. What I mean is that anyone telling the truth right now on here or elsewhere, basically fighting back against all the lies we've been so conditioned and programmed to believe, takes a risk. Big risks. Getting FBI knocking at the door, or put on a list. Social risks. Being ostracized by friends or even family members, losing employment, losing business relationships, income, social status. Smaller ones. Being called a nutjob, buffoon, or even just disliked or misunderstood in a realm of like minds. You won't be believed or listened to you might think. Feeling like you don't belong, or didn't say anything that matters. They use these fears as the biggest obstacle of all. "Conspiracy"

The truth is unbelievable and feels unreal at times, too. I learned so much coming here from pats.win when I think back about it. Like others, my head caved in at the sheer feeling of unreality around the whole time of the election and I could not just go back to some kind of fucked up normal where i was supposed to doubt and not believe the world was upside down anymore after it had been for months. The idea of just going back, detuning, and not continuing to dig and try and figure out WTF JUST HAPPENED was outrageous to me as others did so and told us we had to. I found no life or interest in the posts there anymore. So I jumped over here and started learning about Q, which was treated like some forbidden fruit or already disproven LARP with subversive reductive ends and no basis in reality from how it was made out there. I trusted that take on Q before but nothing was making fucking sense anymore, so I got interested and dove in. There is a big learning curve to it once you do. It must be even funnier for those of you who were already riding with GAW to see the state of affairs presently. Wow.

So anyway there's many levels to this. Even if we don't get fearful of speaking within our own circles, certainly most or all of us know the feeling, for which I think the best example is J6 and 2020 - we were pointing at burning buildings and our leaders and fellow citizens just raised an eyebrow. We screamed loud, please help, there is something wrong, they have stolen our votes and our country - and the people who we elect to be our voice clammed up and kept walking right past us, through us, like we were ghosts. It was an incredible feeling of dejection and misanthropy en masse.

I think learning to overcome that is part of the whole process of "waking up" so to speak. Part of what we have to do is to offer the information and truth we've learned to others. We're students first and then teachers (or shepherds, whatever you like). If we are going to stop the wolves we mustn't be afraid to speak up, use our voices and keep using them no matter how harsh a reaction we face for doing so. When no one listens it is even more important to keep going! That is the worst time to stop in fact, when its darkest, right before the sunlight comes.

It is all, collectively, working and doing damage to them, bringing us closer to the goal. I read a stickied post the other day - my crude interpretation of it: ::At the bar this evening::

• Who's the gov. Of California?
• George Soros!?

::Big laugh all around::

Word of mouth has taken this info far and wide and moments like that reassure me that it really does matter and is worth our time to keep learning and talking about. We're doing important work to make this common knowledge until it's almost passe instead of 'verboten' like they need it to be to keep power and control. We've all found out, whether you believe it all or not - and its destroying them. The writing is on the wall, we must remember that when we are discouraged. (talking to myself mostly)

Hope this made sense, I tried to make it sound like more than a morass of bullshit.

• TLDR; we are supposed to speak up and share. Mass awareness is how the herd escapes the wolves. You might be ready, self sufficient and able to independently survive, but no man is an island and this shit will be a lot more rough if we don't pick each other up and save each other. We should want more than just ourselves to survive the storm; it's going to be really ugly if we don't act accordingly.