I'm struggling.
And to cope, I (ab)use substances, like alcohol, weed and other stuff.
I want to get out, but I'm not ready to accept Jesus as my saviour, because I... well... It's complicated.
I DO accept Jesus as what he is, and that he saves People, a lot.
But...
For the moment, I won't be able to respond to comments in this post, because I'm heading to bed, pretty wasted.
I don't know where this thread will take me, but here we go.
Please, I'd rather not be encouraged to put all my faith in Jesus etc.
I do believe in the Creator, though...
Btw, GAW community...
Thank you for being here the last couple of years.
Edit: Wow, thank you for all your support! Iβll read all of it and will certainly get back to you all. ππ»ππ»ππ»
My story is very similar to your wife's, by the time I found AA I thought the God I knew from my childhood, had abandoned me. When I truly gave up and asked for help God was there. This past June, by the grace of God, I celebrated 30 years sober.