People have the idea that they can save themselves by being good. Who is good but God? None. Nobody can save themselves, not even Christians. We are saved by our faith in Christ. The one and only all powerful living God that loved us so much became human and lived a perfect life which no man is capable of and we crucified Him for it. Thankfully His power extends beyond death. By our belief in His blood we are saved for we are all sinners. There is a lot of theology in that to unpack. It goes deep but the beginning of wisdom is the fear of the Lord. You should at least try to find out before you curse yourself to an eternity in Hell. I pray you find truth brother.