Ever since Q's latest "Ascension" post I'm going through that with my third eye right now. That's the best way I can describe it.
I've got the spasms and jitters, thoughts are coming and going so fast I feel like I'm gonna puke, my heart is racing, and I keep having big "revelations" about how the physical world is stitched together, in both a literal and figurative sense. I'm physically sick because I don't have any way to write it all down or tell anyone what I see in my head. It's like language fails me and I get super bummed knowing there's no way to just show people what I see as clearly as the nose in front of my face. I wanna just clutch my head and scream, to be honest with you.
It's really frustrating...
I get this way sporadically, mind you. I gots the narcolepsy real bad, and sometimes I manage to dream while I'm awake. I don't get full-blown hallucinations, but things get surreal, I "see people's real faces" when I look at them like I've never seen them before and can't recognize family members, and every dream I've had suddenly becomes accessible to call upon.
Let me explain that last part.
You know how you can't ever really remember a dream? Well, sometimes you can, but they sorta just fade away after a while and you gotta write them down before they get lost?
Yeah, sometimes that "barrier" between my real memories and dream memories just takes a vacation and I can call on dream memories like normal memories. I sometimes have to audit my memories to remind myself certain dream events didn't really happen. It is not a comfortable experience.
Well, I'm going through that right now and it's not letting up. I don't know if White Hats fired up some sorta new-age machine or turned off the Cabal's suppression machines a-la Era of Light crazy theories, but something is going on right now where I can't turn off the dream state.
I figure the timing with the Q post, something is going on. Maybe it's just me. I know I'm crazy, but sometimes this brand of crazy lends itself to some seriously spiritual revelations, so I can't exactly say it's a bad thing.
Anyways...
Anyone else feelin' it right now?
Is this the "Awakening" part of the show? Maybe I'm just having an episode unrelated to everything else? Don't know for sure, but things sure do feel trippy right now.
Well, for me it's been going on as long as I can remember, but especially since I got narcolepsy around 7th grade.
Every day since then I get bouts of a fever-ish dream-like state where all my senses go wild. I get really sleepy during these periods, and my eyes wiggle like I'm in REM sleep.
All this goes towards my choice of username, by the way.
Do you have to wear a hat when you go into grocery stores because you can't turn off your peripheral vision and "download" every image, graphic, color, etc. on every product in every aisle? Basically, my ability to ignore things turns off, and I see/feel everything with super intensity. Sounds like what happens to you in the middle of the night.
Nope, I can shut it down during the day for the most part - so much so that my husband will be sitting next to me calling my name several times before I allow myself to hear him. Don't get me wrong, the downloads can definitely happen during the day. But I'm more able to control my response or "in-take" of those than I am in the night. I've always been a control freak, so maybe that works to my advantage. But the nighttime gets crazy. Feels like I'm an antennae without any limits. This is where your narcolepsy is probably working against you the most - or maybe in your favor...who really knows what the purpose is for this?
Rereading the title of this post sparks another connection. I can see the "brightness" before I ever open my eyes. It's like there's a spotlight in the room w/me, so I get that feeling too. Wish there was some kind of practical information that comes through during these times, but it's all so random. Seems like that's the case for you too. Either way, I'm sorry you're struggling with it and feeling this intensity. It's not pleasant for sure.