Read the book of Romans. Read it carefully. Once God turns you over, there is no coming back. You are give. To your own lists. You see this very plainly in the homo community. Reprobates. But yes the spirit comes again and again. God makes himself manifest so that we are without excuse on the day of judgment. But once you reject the Holy Spirit enough, God will turn you over to a reprobate mind and there is no salvation. Many many many pretend Christian’s out there that act the act but are so deceived by their own pride that they think they know Jesus. Knowing of someone and actually knowing someone are different. If you know the Lord and have the gift of the comforter there is no doubt. You understand and see things different. Scripture becomes live and a miracle takes place when you get born again. It is unexplainable to one who dosnt have this gift. They might agree with you but their understanding is different. And usually many will claim to have what you do only to make themselves feel good but as soon as you start talking scripture you will notice their attention span changes. Discernment is a gift of the spirit. It comes because the spirit is the discerner. But yes you can be turned over. Romans 1