Dec. 5th, 2022 3:44AM
I woke up with a sour stomach and felt lead to read my Bible and pray. I asked God what He wanted me to know, do or understand. He lead me to the first three chapters of Jeremiah.
In the first two chapters, God has the prophet Jeremiah tell the people of Israel about how they forsook and turned their backs on God to chase after foreign gods and idols made from their own hands and worship them instead of Him as a prostitute would and do vile and evil deeds. He told about how because the people turned away from God to do these things and only cried out to God for help when things got really bad, He withheld His blessings and His help and even the rains. They had neglected God otherwise as God wanted their devotion and their hearts. God wanted their love, obedience and a relationship with them all the time not just during their hour of need and trial.
Because the people had rejected God except when things got bad, God rejected them, for God is a jealous God and wants our whole hearts not just part of the time.
Chapter 3;3,4 Therefore the showers have been withheld and no spring rains have fallen. Yet you have the brazen look of a prostitute:
You refuse to blush with shame. 4)Have you not just called me: ‘My Father, my friend from my youth.’
It brought to mind something that happened over 32 years ago. I was in a date with an old boyfriend downtown Seattle. I had grown quite promiscuous and had been seeking the love I had so lacked and so desperately needed at home growing up as a kid with no guidance from an abusive home.
We were walking down the sidewalk holding hands when a homeless man jumped out in front of us from out of nowhere and began yelling at me. He kept repeating over and over.
“You’d better start blushing girl! You’d better start blushing!”
It made no sense to me then and he kept challenging my boyfriend to fight him and darting back and forth into doorways in front of us. We ignored him and continued walking away. As we were walking away from him, he yelled at me. “I’ve got nobody, nowhere, nothing!”
We just assumed he was either just another druggie or mentally disturbed or both. My own dad spent over twenty five years as a homeless alcoholic and would often go on yelling rants such as this, so this just like my dad made no sense to me at the time.
Just now though reading Jeremiah, it suddenly made sense. I think that man may have actually been a prophet who appeared as a homeless man so that I could relate and I missed it. I think he was telling me that I should be ashamed of my actions in how I turned my back in God, my first love whom I had chosen at just five years old.
I was so sinful in chasing my own willful lusts and desires that I had turned my back on God. That man was warning me. I didn’t listen and I paid the price. Over the next few years I lost one job after another, one boyfriend after another, three apartments, totaled my car, lost my first two pregnancies out of wedlock, had to turn to extended family for a place to stay and friends from church as I wasn’t welcome at my parents because I was my real dad’s kid not because of any crime, drug or horrible act though I had been diagnosed as bipolar when I was nineteen and I’m sure I was a handful and a half for my mom and stepdad with rollercoaster moods.
God wants our whole heart, love and devotion all the time, not just when times are bad.
Some of the things man turns to to replace God that steal away our live and devotion to Him and become idols are:
Idols made of wood, clay, metal and stone and plastic
Foreign gods and other religions
Celebrities-actors, singers, musicians, magicians, sports games and players
Fame
Lust, sex, abortion (sacrifice to Moloch)
Sexual immorality, perversion, depravity, homosexuality
Beauty in man’s eyes
Drugs and Alcohol, partying
Wealth, money
Fancy buildings, homes and cars
Jewels
Fancy clothes
Careers
Clicky Friends
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When we turn to any of these things as our go to priority and forget God, we cannot expect to be blessed, helped, protected, healed, lead or guided. We can no longer hear His voice. He wants to be first, NOT an afterthought when we are in trouble. God will NOT be mocked and when we put Him last, it is mocking Him. Return to God!!! Put Him first and He will bless, protect, lead, guide, direct you.
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Yes, “hated and worthless, sick like my dad” were frequently said to me by my mom and stepdad. I was told, “don’t bother trying, you aren’t good enough, you’ll be lucky to live to see twenty” My mom claimed to believe in the writings of Dr. Spick and reverse psychology. She also said I was strong willed and she needed to break that will.
I shared what I did to Really say that Tho I was in nearly all ways hated by my
parents, - yet I CHOSE to grow into a Different person & Love.... on people
Then too, tho some on this very platform by their words too hate me,
yet I CHOOSE to be a Different person & live my life differently Too, because too many Bible-christians here are hateful, the chance of me ever going to "church" again are about Nil. -- Instead, I will Stay with God/Jesus as my ALL --> Creator+ Daddy+ Savior+ Teacher+ Best-friend+ Resurrector I talk with Jesus every day & he means everything to me A few Christian are my friends here.
Add me to that list of friends if you would please. I have prayed for many years for godly lifelong Christian friends. In the past nearly every friend I had turned into back stabbers and fair weather friends. Also, Camp Yesu will need many people like you as staff and board if you are interested. I can share mission plan via email. I am on prayer garden through discord if you want to share with me there. Same name.
As you can see in my 1st. response here I've lived as quite the little creator... of all kinds of community Service projects incldg. Envisioning & helping operate a successful Homeschooling co-op :) - Then 3 months ago, I read all Ryan's posts re campJesu, & responded with my own little summary comment there, but since you just mentioned Montana... have No interest in moving there, as I am planning moving closer to my daughter in Tenn. - tho I do wish you God's speed & success :) - Too, I was on Ryan's discord server briefly but when that thing Required Email, I told Ryan that all 4 of mine are Private & I intend to keep them that way, so I had to leave. - But once I accept someone as a friend, I only walk away...when the person is persistently negative to the point of being a destructive influence in my life & others = which unfortunately describes too many "Bible-christians" so that referred to my previous statement. Decades ago, I described them as me being Allergic to them. ~~
Merry Christmas to you :)
May I ask your prayer in it at least please?
We will also need part time and occassional workers as well as volunteers. Would your daughter be interested or a good contributor? Perhaps the two of you could come occassionally or something. Just spitballin. Have a Wonderful Christmas. God Bless you
What thing required an email?the only reason I had asked for one was because I didn’t know you had already seen the Camp Yesu mission plan and I was going to share it with you. I am kind of a technotard (according to my grown kids anyway) and it’s the only way I know how to send stuff. Also, I don’t know for sure that Montana is where Camp Yesu will be, it’s just where I feel like God is leading me to put it based in what the visions and dreams I keep having look like. I made a list of properties from several mountain ranges around the country though in case it isn’t Montana.
Oh yay your talking to our sis u/2rainbows she is a good apple(when she behaves right) and has a huge heart for Jesus. Was eventually gonna try to introduce you to each other, was hoping it would happen naturally and looks like God is good. Like usual. She is someone that I know can be a huge resource to you and what God has put on your heart
Thanks Ry. Btw; I’m having a difficult time making connections on prayer garden. No one really wants to engage in conversation with me for some reason. Plus not spending as much time there as I wanted as Allan still has an issue with it.
First off let me say I am truly thankful for your willingness to contribute. I seriously cant Express it enough. Out of everyone that has ever been part of Prayer Garden you have been one of the few that has been eager to contribute and have stuck with it. It's not an easy thing and can often feel like we are being ignored. Please dont let that doubt stop u. I am finally starting to feel better plus Amanda is not working right now. She is gonna be spending more time there yo help out. I will ask her to engage with u more plus I will do a better job as well. Holidays are rough times because people are busy and/or in a weird frame of mind and distant. We will make it through. Everything we do now is like laying a brick for the foundation of the future. I love u sis
Have a wonderful Christmas
What do you talk about in Ryan's place?
Are you asking what I talk about, or anyone. Many topics come up but I don’t get alot of time on there like I’d like as my husband has issue with me being on here and there much for some reason. He thinks it gets in the way of our time together. I think the age gap might have something to do with the lack of conversation engagement. I’m nearly twice the age of most on there and different topics of interest. I’m probably closer to your age.
Did you see that, Callme? - I have been in relationship with Jesus about twice as long as Ryan has been alive. Yet (when she behaves right) no less sight Unseen he JUDGES me.That's the sort of "judgmental christians" I told you I usually walk away from, so I'm glad I Noticed that.
I don’t know what he is referring to so I can’t comment on what he said. I have spoken to him several times though and he’s a pretty nice guy with a big heart