I'm with you I went through it too. I'm lucky every day I didn't let them take my old man in for his too. I don't know if I could live with that. But we're all sitting here, likely realizing we're going to watch people we love die. It hurts, it can't hurt anything like this poor soul but still. It's a nightmare we are never going to wake up from. Likely a set up for the real pandemic to come, more virulent and stronger and now easily able to rip through swathes of humanity like a goddamn weed whacker. Sadistic doesnt begin to touch it.