I am far from perfect as many are. Over the past year or two I have been trying to find religion. However, I've noticed Ive been trying to find a religion that justifies my poor decisions or hateful/disgusting outlook on life. Telling myself, there's no way pedophiles should be able to walk among us, and into the woodchipper I should throw them. People who harm children or others violently should die at my hands or another vengeful persons hands. I always looked to tell homosexuals and trans that they are disgusting, sick, and wrong. Ive berated liberals, democrats, and Republicans, with bias to conservatives. I've noticed that I constantly feel like I have a moral high ground as I shout, don't kill babies, fags shouldn't exist and someone should tell them, fuck joe biden, fuck this fuck that. To be honest it felt great, Its almost like I was using others as a stepping stool to get up on my high horse. Our whole existence is very short lived on this floating ball ripping through space. Yet I spend it angry at the the Bill Gates and Soros's of the world. In my head demanding punishment for their actions. It's hard to not want harm on them for what they do to the world, but I don't know what should happen to them. These thoughts boil all the way down to my own trauma throughout my personal experiences in my home life. I want to change but don't even know where to begin, I don't truly know right or wrong even when it seems evident. I hope the higher power that be help me discover a path forward. For eternal suffering sounds far beyond miserable, and I would love to see my deceased relatives again.
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I would look inward to what your soul is trying to express to you, rather than looking for a specific religion. Religion can be a comfort to many, but also divides. Truth is, your soul is an aspect of Source (God) animating a human avatar form (you) to learn, experience, help, and grow and return back. Look up Law of One which is more complicated than just that, but that is the part I believe in strongly.
As far as the evil-doers. They are just doing what they are going to do. Most of them are literal sub-human entities. Your neighbor that goes to the drag show?? The jury is out on that one for me. Lots and lots of real people are quite confused and battling alot of energies right now. But the main bad guys that we hear about are actual non-human entities. Some are reptilian/demonic in nature and must exist on the negative energies and traumas they cause the human populace (its called Loosh). Many, many others are just soulless vessels being controlled. In my opinion, these types are literally running off an A.I.
So, they are just doing what they are going to do. No real sense in getting angry at a monkey for throwing its feces at you. I get more upset at the smart, rational people of this Earth who can't see this. Or, more accurately, refuse to even consider that ANYTHING we say might be right.
Best of luck