So I haven't been on much the past year/year and a half. I've had a massive amount of personal issues. The past few weeks I've been trying to distance myself from all the trouble, so GAW has been a great source of community for me. I don't post much, but I read and feel like you guys are my friends and telling me the latest I've missed out on. But it seems no matter how much I try to move on from my issues, they follow me. I found out my partner of 10 years was cheating on me for the last 2 that I was with him, and so I packed up and moved to another state. I found someone else I thought cared about me but that didn't work out so well either. I'm pretty much getting it from all angles. Financial problems too and I have a 4 year old daughter. I seemed to have made just a giant mess of my life, and no matter where I turn, I can't seem to fix it. I've been praying to God with my whole heart for months. Crying out to Him with tears in my heart and running down my face, and I get no answers. I'm really trying to stay strong for my little girl and strong in Him and I try to turn to Him but I seem to just be going in the same nauseating circle with no end.
Any prayers at all you guys can throw my way would be greatly appreciated. I am also aware that there are people on this board with bigger problems than mine, and in no way am I trying to downplay that or make out that my problems are more important. So please pray for them first, and if you have time please try to remember me. I just feel so alone and helpless.
God bless you all, frens. WWG1WGA
Perhaps asking God to show what you need to repent of will open the door, it did for me. God looks at the heart; if you truly seek him, and are willing to become a disciple and follow Jesus, you will see the change you need. God puts us in tight spots not to have us get temporary relief, but to truly turn our lives around.
Don't need partners; you need to be rooted and grounded in Him, healed and released from all that keeps you bound and made whole. I pray that you will truly come to know the depth, height and width of God's love and mercy, and that you will come to know his peace, joy and abundant provision and blessings.