I recommend this video by Sabine Hossenfelder, who gives a short tutorial on why the particle physicists of the past 50 years have been riding a hobby horse all the while, to no productive end. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lu4mH3Hmw2o You will probably come away amazed that so much time, effort, and money is spent on vain and idle fancies. And, thus, learn why the people at CERN are more to be disdained or pitied, than feared.