I understand. Sometimes it is hard to put your trust into something once you realize your money has been squandered. But I trust and believe highly in IFCJ just like we do with Operation Smile on CBN. My husband wants to give to James Robertson's network once we free up some money. His org digs Water Wells and it's either a cow or a goat they give to families in needy nations. Start out by giving the minimum amount and then get their monthly newsletters. Find out all you can online about their organization and then read about any celebrities (like I said Mike Huckabee who I call a celebrity) that you know give to that organization. IFCJ sends me a newsletter each month and shows me where my money goes. I give to Isaiah 58 which are the war torn Jews from WWII that live in Ukraine. I told my husband that at their age in life, they should not have to worry for want of food, medicine or heat. I pictured my grandmother suffering in her last years if this had been her, and I knew that was what God wanted me to do. I hope this helps you understand. God bless you.