Didn’t cheat on her, commit dv or anything like that but I messed up pretty bad and my engagement is on the rocks now. I am so upset with myself that I haven’t ate in two days and it’s one of those things where my words don’t matter at the moment so I just feel powerless because nothing in the immediate will fix it. Only time and action will help it. I have made a plan of action I just hope she gives me the chance so I can weather this storm.
I don’t want to go into the details here but if you could pray for me I would appreciate it.
Smells like masturbating to porn to me.
Shit, I think you're right. I was racking my brain and your comment gave me an instant "aha!". Probably walked in on him watching some gross shit, or found the saved pics folder. Work on getting rid of the addiction, op. There's tons of resources out there, on this board, even. It's one of the worst addictions to have, IMO worse than alcoholism. Most marriages that end up in divorce had something to do with porn as a reason.
If she's not willing to forgive you, remove that vice from your life before you start dating again.
And the answer was in your name all along?
I was one of the most egregiously degenerate coomers to walk the face of the earth. I'm not shy about it, and am open about all that, as part of wearing God's armor is to always live in Truth. The Lord set me free from slavery to sin, and pit my life back in my own hands. And for that, I am eternally grateful.