I know. It's just getting harder and harder for me to not slip into a dark place. I honestly come here when I'm at my lowest, looking for evidence that might perk me up.
I know it doesn't make much sense, but most of the time, when I seem oppositional I'm just trying to get someone to prove me wrong, so I can have hope.
Does that make sense? And I know that this isn't the place for me to do that type of thing, but where else is anyone going to try to show how those doubts are wrong?
I guess I'm like the borderline atheist who keeps arguing with Christians. Sometimes I just don't know what is wrong with me.
I know. It's just getting harder and harder for me to not slip into a dark place. I honestly come here when I'm at my lowest, looking for evidence that might perk me up.
I know it doesn't make much sense, but most of the time, when I seem oppositional I'm just trying to get someone to prove me wrong, so I can have hope.
Does that make sense? And I know that this isn't the place for me to do that type of thing, but where else is anyone going to try to show how those doubts are wrong?
I guess I'm like the borderline atheist who keeps arguing with Christians. Sometimes I just don't know what is wrong with me.