Aww fren I know it's not exactly what u are looking for but I am sending my love your way along with a 🤗 hug. Wish I could give u a real hug and just chill with u.

I can relate to that feeling you have friend. The feeling of loneliness and not fitting in. We are often our own worst enemies. I got kicked out of Marines for drugs and battled myself for 10 years as I drove head first into meth and heroin. Only by the Grace of God was I set free. So let's start there. Do u have any sort of spiritual life. Or did u grow up with Christ in your house at all? Where do u currently stand on Jesus Christ.

My name is Ryan and I will be your friend. Would u be ok if I reached out to you daily so we could maybe get to know each other better, or even just continue talking with but keep stuff vague. I will never push u to reveal anything u don't want to. God has just called me to put myself out there so I felt led to atleast put the offer out there. We can talk in PM or on another app, or even in text if u feel led to go that route. No pressure either way. I look forward to talking more with u and want u to know I love u but most of all Jesus loves u. Truly when u take Jesus away from me I am very much the same as u in many ways. Although we all are unique as well. Feel free to lay your troubles out before me brother(?) I wanna be that friendly ear that can help however u need it.