I don't drink often, but when I do I get ridiculously drunk, I become a monster. Im surrounded by some of the best people in the world, but I always end up doing or saying something i can hardly deal with the next day, aside from that, they are more than forgiving. I just recently had a bout of this for my birthday. I generally think this is because I bottle my feelings and the only way I know how to release them is by blacking out and throwing a temper tantrum or sobbing. Its crazy because I'm a grown man. I hate it, i actually hate it. Its like I never grew up, a child stuck in an aging body. I tell myself it wont happen again. Then after months i go out for a beer or a drink and wake up embarrassed seeing flashes of this animal mixed with absolutely nothingness. Wondering what i did or said. While not really wanting to know. If any of you are dealing with this or have, what helped? I dont mind if you Share some embarrassing moments you've dealt with or just how to deal with it. Thanks, this place is the only place I know to ask because I don't have anyone else to talk too.
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Some people do not have the mechanism in their brain that tells them its time to stop intaking alcohol. Best advice I can give is limit yourself to 1 maybe 2 drinks in social settings, hard pass after that. Or just dont drink at all. If you have to drink to have a good time, your an alcoholic. Not being mean, just what it is. And alcoholics who dont have that ability to stop drinking end up blacking out and doing stupid shit or saying stupid shit... all the time.
That sounds exactly like me. I don't drink often at all maybe once every few months max, but have zero control once i have a drink.
It sounds as if you perhaps do not have the oft referred to "addictive personality" but perhaps you have a "binge personality"... You refer to yourself as a "grown man" so it is not inexperience.... so perhaps find something healthy to binge on. Exercise, Research, helping others, nature photography... Something positive!
Thats a great idea. I have lost alot of my life in numerous ways. So it seems I am acting out childishly to fulfill that lack of childhood. To make matters worse I was constantly bombarded with negative things in the last 5 years or more. Im not sure what my outlet will be, but Im going to try.
Gummies! There’s a lot of different kinds.