The worst part about this is that I made this same sort of post to someone else 8 years ago. I feel like I hit a mental brick wall maybe 4 years ago. I've never been able to recover. The privatejoker of 2015 is almost unrecognizable to me right now
Respect dude. You need to be mindful that this entire existence has been made deliberately unpalatable by the deep state. The debt slavery, the long hours of repetitive work toiling under supervisors deliberately promoted for psychopathy (not a factor in your case).
Our ignorance of natural law due to it being kept from us, of our own consciousness, religions that talk in riddles and seem designed to confuse and set us against each other. The attention of society only focused on the material and the culture being the complete antithesis of the spirit of man. Our science corrupted to send our thought off on spurious vectors to nowhere. Our music - debased, our entertainment - Nil, Our thoughts - controlled through language, Our spirits progressively diminished since birth.
Be proud of the fact that this world makes you sick.
It is without question (the beauty of nature aside) a disgusting, vile, insular, stymied, torturous little shit-hole of a prison planet run by intolerable shit-toadies and replete with utterly transparent bullshit to the point of being driven out of your mind.
Mental illness is a reaction to the carcinogenic malaise of this choad of lies we are all required to imbibe daily.
I too am not recognizable as the GizzardPuke of 2015. Being awake through this period of history has destroyed my respect for 80% of my fellow man.
I believe the outcasts of society have been vindicated. Being estranged from this world is a badge of honor. I don't want to go outside (where there are people) either.
I have no answers for this state of affairs short of truth being ubiquitous again.
I’m sorry fren, I feel your pain on a very deep level. I’ve been there myself several times, I know it can feel impossible to overcome. My go to was pills, anything to dull the edges. But you can get better, even when it feels like you can’t. Reaching out to us is a big step. It used to be so hard for me to talk about it. When I felt really bad but was struggling to admit it I’d tell my husband “I don’t feel good today”, he’d respond with “mentally or physically?”. It doesn’t seem like much, but me just acknowledging my mental state took pressure off. Sometimes we’d go deeper if I wanted to talk, other times I just felt relief that I didn’t have to pretend to be okay. That little release of pressure helped me make other small changes until I started to get better. I still have my days, but I’m no longer in that dark hole feeling like I’ll never escape. Sending good vibes and healing your way.
The worst part about this is that I made this same sort of post to someone else 8 years ago. I feel like I hit a mental brick wall maybe 4 years ago. I've never been able to recover. The privatejoker of 2015 is almost unrecognizable to me right now
Respect dude. You need to be mindful that this entire existence has been made deliberately unpalatable by the deep state. The debt slavery, the long hours of repetitive work toiling under supervisors deliberately promoted for psychopathy (not a factor in your case).
Our ignorance of natural law due to it being kept from us, of our own consciousness, religions that talk in riddles and seem designed to confuse and set us against each other. The attention of society only focused on the material and the culture being the complete antithesis of the spirit of man. Our science corrupted to send our thought off on spurious vectors to nowhere. Our music - debased, our entertainment - Nil, Our thoughts - controlled through language, Our spirits progressively diminished since birth.
Be proud of the fact that this world makes you sick. It is without question (the beauty of nature aside) a disgusting, vile, insular, stymied, torturous little shit-hole of a prison planet run by intolerable shit-toadies and replete with utterly transparent bullshit to the point of being driven out of your mind.
Mental illness is a reaction to the carcinogenic malaise of this choad of lies we are all required to imbibe daily.
I too am not recognizable as the GizzardPuke of 2015. Being awake through this period of history has destroyed my respect for 80% of my fellow man.
I believe the outcasts of society have been vindicated. Being estranged from this world is a badge of honor. I don't want to go outside (where there are people) either.
I have no answers for this state of affairs short of truth being ubiquitous again.
Good luck fren.
I’m sorry fren, I feel your pain on a very deep level. I’ve been there myself several times, I know it can feel impossible to overcome. My go to was pills, anything to dull the edges. But you can get better, even when it feels like you can’t. Reaching out to us is a big step. It used to be so hard for me to talk about it. When I felt really bad but was struggling to admit it I’d tell my husband “I don’t feel good today”, he’d respond with “mentally or physically?”. It doesn’t seem like much, but me just acknowledging my mental state took pressure off. Sometimes we’d go deeper if I wanted to talk, other times I just felt relief that I didn’t have to pretend to be okay. That little release of pressure helped me make other small changes until I started to get better. I still have my days, but I’m no longer in that dark hole feeling like I’ll never escape. Sending good vibes and healing your way.