One thing I have learned is that to make life go smoothly (and therefore according to God's design) you have to listen to your heart.
It sounds like you are already doing that to an extent by making the decision not to go back home, but you are still hung up on the results.
Whatever we experience is always temporary. If you can let go of your expectations with regards to results you tend to get better results, especially when you expect God/Jesus/Universe to help you along - you just have to keep an eye out for the signs.
Deep breaths, have faith and stay open to new opportunities - you never know what direction life will take you.
An example for you: Last year my wife and I decided to visit her niece and small child, even though we knew the child was ill with laryngitis (which I've never had before, but I've had tonsillitis loads of times).
We decided to go because we really wanted to see them. Unfortunately I got quite a bad case of laryngitis which meant that we had to cancel a long held booking for a weekend trip away for my wife and myself - something we haven't been able to do for several years, so it was really disappointing.
However, I made the decision to go in the full knowledge it might make me ill, so I accepted the consequences with good grace.
As a direct result of that we ended up going to a completely random event we would never have otherwise attended, where we met a couple who both my wife and I really got on well with and have since become firm friends with.
When I say that's a rare thing, it's a massive understatement. It's not really rare, it's unique (for us).
So, in deciding to visit our niece and accepting it when we got ill, and supposedly lost out as a result, we ended up much better off 6 months down the line.
You just never know. The only thing in life you truly control, is how you engage with life - your attitude and approach to life's challenges.
Having said that, a little luck doesn't go amiss, so best of luck, and good on you for sticking to your principles. If you change your mind just because it creates hardship, then it wasn't a principle - you clearly know that and that puts you well ahead of the game in my estimation.
Lots of great tips on here.
One thing I have learned is that to make life go smoothly (and therefore according to God's design) you have to listen to your heart.
It sounds like you are already doing that to an extent by making the decision not to go back home, but you are still hung up on the results.
Whatever we experience is always temporary. If you can let go of your expectations with regards to results you tend to get better results, especially when you expect God/Jesus/Universe to help you along - you just have to keep an eye out for the signs.
Deep breaths, have faith and stay open to new opportunities - you never know what direction life will take you.
An example for you: Last year my wife and I decided to visit her niece and small child, even though we knew the child was ill with laryngitis (which I've never had before, but I've had tonsillitis loads of times).
We decided to go because we really wanted to see them. Unfortunately I got quite a bad case of laryngitis which meant that we had to cancel a long held booking for a weekend trip away for my wife and myself - something we haven't been able to do for several years, so it was really disappointing.
However, I made the decision to go in the full knowledge it might make me ill, so I accepted the consequences with good grace.
As a direct result of that we ended up going to a completely random event we would never have otherwise attended, where we met a couple who both my wife and I really got on well with and have since become firm friends with.
When I say that's a rare thing, it's a massive understatement. It's not really rare, it's unique (for us).
So, in deciding to visit our niece and accepting it when we got ill, and supposedly lost out as a result, we ended up much better off 6 months down the line.
You just never know. The only thing in life you truly control, is how you engage with life - your attitude and approach to life's challenges.
Having said that, a little luck doesn't go amiss, so best of luck, and good on you for sticking to your principles. If you change your mind just because it creates hardship, then it wasn't a principle - you clearly know that and that puts you well ahead of the game in my estimation.