I agree with you. You are not alone though, even those that have resisted all the programing throughout their lives are still affected by it subconsciously, I caught myself falling for certain BS a few years ago now, meant to cause me fear but, since I started putting a lot of the worry and faith onto God and Jesus, things are so much clearer, easy to digest and see what's what, without fear, without hate (though frustration still goes up at times), when you understand what's going on with the bigger picture, it is easily managed when you have your "one on one" with Jesus about it. lol God Bless.