Thank you for sharing your story, I agree the it needs to be talked about and exposed to the light. Your courage is astounding and I am humbled by your upbringing. At 17 I thought my parents were awful, horrible parents, I had it so, so good & was too entitled to know it. I pray you have healing and peace. Thank you for giving a voice to the victims of this horrible evil in our world that never had a chance to speak of it.
Thanks for the kind words... Until I worked at a hotel with a bar, I had a phobia against being around people drinking booze. At that hotel I learned that most people don't get as drunk as possible and go blackout drunk.
I watched the worst abuser get beat up at the store and didn't try and get help for him. He could really abuse my mom. It was very satisfying watching him get beat up.
I imagine it felt convicting to watch him receive some of the abuse he doled out. I'm just very humbled by your matter of fact way of describing such horrific events, I understand that sometimes the cycle of abuse is broken. I'm thankful your cycle ended with your past and hope your voice now can help others who are abused now. So many are and we don't understand it fully, but stories like yours make it hard to ignore and turn a blind eye.
Everclear has a song Father of Mine, a verse that describes how children of abusive men feel.
I will never be safe
I will never be sane
I will always be weird inside
I will always be lame
Now I'm a grown man
With a child of my own
And I swear, I'll never let her know
All the pain I have known
I know the song, and I wish you didn't feel so weird inside, but I hope you know, your biggest fan is your daughter and breaking that chain of abuse was an incredible feat! It's ok to share your story with her at some point in time, you have no reason hide it, none of it was your fault, you had some seriously shitty parenting and were around awful adults because of it. Your daughter may understand you a little better and love you even more if she knows what you suffered and conquered. Saying that, there are things I've never shared with my children too, I don't want them to hurt knowing I was hurt, so I do understand your point.
Thank you for sharing your story, I agree the it needs to be talked about and exposed to the light. Your courage is astounding and I am humbled by your upbringing. At 17 I thought my parents were awful, horrible parents, I had it so, so good & was too entitled to know it. I pray you have healing and peace. Thank you for giving a voice to the victims of this horrible evil in our world that never had a chance to speak of it.
Thanks for the kind words... Until I worked at a hotel with a bar, I had a phobia against being around people drinking booze. At that hotel I learned that most people don't get as drunk as possible and go blackout drunk.
I watched the worst abuser get beat up at the store and didn't try and get help for him. He could really abuse my mom. It was very satisfying watching him get beat up.
I imagine it felt convicting to watch him receive some of the abuse he doled out. I'm just very humbled by your matter of fact way of describing such horrific events, I understand that sometimes the cycle of abuse is broken. I'm thankful your cycle ended with your past and hope your voice now can help others who are abused now. So many are and we don't understand it fully, but stories like yours make it hard to ignore and turn a blind eye.
Everclear has a song Father of Mine, a verse that describes how children of abusive men feel.
I will never be safe I will never be sane I will always be weird inside I will always be lame Now I'm a grown man With a child of my own And I swear, I'll never let her know All the pain I have known
I know the song, and I wish you didn't feel so weird inside, but I hope you know, your biggest fan is your daughter and breaking that chain of abuse was an incredible feat! It's ok to share your story with her at some point in time, you have no reason hide it, none of it was your fault, you had some seriously shitty parenting and were around awful adults because of it. Your daughter may understand you a little better and love you even more if she knows what you suffered and conquered. Saying that, there are things I've never shared with my children too, I don't want them to hurt knowing I was hurt, so I do understand your point.