The body of a person given over to melancholy will be literally built of gloomy thoughts materialized into flesh and blood. When a girl realizes more and more clearly that jealousy, peevishness and pettish pouting moods will spoil her good looks and complexion, she will make efforts to rid herself of such thoughts. They will destroy her body. The Infinite Power for good wants all things and all people to be beautiful, healthful and symmetrical, and intends ever to increase this beauty, health and symmetry. It works through a continual process of regeneration to keep them so. If it cannot effect such perpetual life and beauty with one physical organization, it mercifully lets it go to pieces and gives the spirit another.
When a man realizes that his angry mood or his covetous mood, or his grumbling mood represents so much material put in his body, and that such element will give his body pain and make it sick he has a good strong reason for having some care as to what his mind runs on and for making the “inside of the platter clean.”
Such riddance is the commencement of getting a new body. It is in the way of a literal regeneration. If through long habit we find we cannot by our own endeavor keep out of these injurious moods, if we find ourselves from time to time drawn into the current of tattle, or greed, or envy, we can cease all endeavor of our own and ask help of the Supreme Power to give us new and better thoughts. That Power, through our demand, will give us a new mind. The new mind will bring the new body.
You're most welcome, and kudos to you for your self-awareness. That's the hard part for most people. You can't correct it until you first notice it.
Here's a simple practice for rapid resolution - literally - although your thinking monkey-mind will rebel violently against it. The hard part is ignoring and transcending it, because it's sure its right and can justify its position until the cows come home.
What if? What if you could just allow everything to be as it is? The good, the bad and the ugly? This is an "advanced metaphysical practice", even though there's really nothing advanced about it. Th hard part is seeing thee monkey-mind running amok. Once you see it, you'll never let it get the best of you ever again. Until you see it, this practice appears ludicrous and impossible.
The monkey-mind. aka "The Matrix" wishes you to remain in fear and judgment, aka "anger". As long as you stay in this space, "The matrix has you".
The larger part of you is beyond this matrix. And this is where you really want to be. As Rumi said: "Out beyond the field of right-doing and wrong-doing there is a field: I'll meet you there", aka "The peace that passeth all understanding".
Good luck to you!
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