This is personal, I’m sorry mods. But I don’t know where else to turn.
I’m dealing with a lot of health issues at the moment. I’ve developed an eating disorder that I can’t seem to overcome on my own. It’s getting very bad. In specific, it’s ARFID, and a fear of any food I eat causing anaphylaxis.
This was likely brought on because I’ve entered perimenopause and my hormones have gone insane. And my stress has been high since last November because of family health issues (nonvaxxed). Constantly an anxious wreck.
So now I’m at a point where I need intervention. But that’s going to be medicine and I know it. I do not trust hormone pills - when I was on birth control it made me very suicidal. And I don’t trust anxiety medicine either, because…duh lol. Also don’t trust supplements and can’t afford the more trustworthy ones. I need vitamin C.
Frankly I don’t trust doctors, either. Especially with this bullshit second round of Covid.
Im also broke. Can’t afford any kind of treatment except if I were to be sent to the ER and be billed, then I just wouldn’t be able to pay it. I lost Medicaid last month because our Covid mandates ended.
What would you do?
I pray to God constantly about this but it just keeps getting worse.
It’s tough because you guys are the only ones that would understand the reluctance to get help. Everything I’ve read online about people with similar issues, they all go straight to medications and it solves it for them. It makes me feel very alone and like I’m fighting a battle that can’t be won.
Thank you so much for the thorough answer. I’m sorry she had to go through this too. It’s hell.
Almost all of the foods you’ve mentioned are ones that I’m afraid of or struggle with. I’ve been just fighting to get some calories in most days so it’s been mainly heavily buttered and Parmesan’d pasta. It’s not healthy but something needs to be going in. I was also eating a lot of potatoes but that’s now ruined.
Never exercise anymore for feeling so ill but I’ll do my best to go on some walks. It’s an unsafe neighborhood so it’s scary.
Luckily my company is great. It’s just me and my parents and we all take care of each other.
Thank you again. Your message means a lot to me.