So, i kind of wanted to reach out to anyone willing to listen. Kind of a Mental Health Post and in a way I am hoping for some relief in a sense. I discovered Q in 2018, and I genuinely believe it's changed me for the better, I believe myself lucky to have discovered the drops and have been astounded by what has transpired the last 5 years since then. Although I have also been greatly fatigued mentally by it, I wish not to spread doom, for i do have faith that there will come about a great victory for all of Humanity, and despite having to tread through the mud- to speak somewhat poetically, The best is indeed yet to come.
I just wish sometimes i had more patience, I have damaged relationships, lost friends, Damaged my own reputation in a way and i am at fault- i will admit, for the above being said. Part of me wishes and longs for the day that the veil will be lifted and people whom i use to know, whom i still care for in my heart, despite knowing that ill never be able to go back to how it was before or even speak to them again, would realize what i had been going through and forgive me, Which i admit is selfish of me. I know the ultimate goal is much more than how i feel or have felt- And somethings happen the way they do for a good reason.
I also know that, despite feeling alone, i am not alone for there are unsung heroes whom have been waiting much longer than I, and whom have suffered much more than I. To be honest, despite how i feel, i know that i have had great luck in my life for that i am grateful. Ultimately when the day that most on this board have been anticipating comes, This Great Shift in our People's Consciousness, i believe the weight upon our souls will be lifted and even some vindication will be granted. Anyways, this post is kind of all over the place, but i wish all of you the best and welcome words of encouragement and wisdom from those who are willing to offer it. Thank you.
You need to seperate what you know in regards to your awakening with everyday life or it'll wear you down. You still have to play the game and push forward in life. I was in your position once and come to realise this movement is real. Not much I can do as an individual but drop red pills here and there so don't let it get you down, focus on the hobbies that make you happy and keep active.