Same, i knew I was going to war and just put on the game face and went. Looking back I can trace how I came to reject the narrative. It took trumps first election and what followed. It's not without pain that it comes. Buddies dead or grievously wounded... constant war drums for 20 fucking years. Unraveling the entire psyop from your brain takes its toll. Good news, won't ever happen again to me or many of us who are now awake. I cam guess the deep states song in about 2 notes now.