Dear Frens,

my mother passed away, she is now with our loving Father in Heaven.

Thank you for all your prayers, thoughts and support. It was helpful, important and so much appreciated, but God decided differently, now she has not to suffer any more.

A nurse told me that she got the panic attack yesterday due to seeing a man at her bedside. And she told me that my mother later reported she recognized him as my father who has passed away years ago. So he came to accompany her the way to god.

This fact and your support carries me through. After days the sun came out this morning when I drove to the hospital. I thought perhaps it is a very good sign together with all the frens prayers. It was a good sign, she is now with our loving Father.

Thank you so much. Really, you are all so very awesome - I love you, may God bless and protect you and your families in these dark times.

(because many frens think and write otherwise, I am a lady pede and not so strong like you strong male warriors, I try my best with Gods help, but it is what it is.)

Need strength. Inner peace and trust for Gods will. IN JESUS NAME. AMEN.

(Edited) They told me not enough oxygen, probably the lung capcity is restricted. And I just heard she needs strength for her heart that is the problem. She already has a pace maker and it is not strong enough to handle all the liquids gathered in the body.

Just got the phone call from the surgeon that carried out the surgery. The next days will be crucial.

I love her so much and hoped that she would profit from the surgery which had to be done to avoid a lot of suffering and the surgery so far was all good, they even did something against problems with her stomach, but her heart is weak.

I have to trust God and his will, he knows best and the right time for her to come into his loving arms. But it is hard to accept it and surrender to his wisdom and love.