I just wanted to start this by thanking everyone for the incredible support you offered me when I made my post 3 weeks ago. I'll include an update on where I am and what is going on, but this post is primarily going to be a cry for help. If you don't care about the details, skip down - I'll leave an ampersand on its on line where I make my request.

I am still in Georgia. I've purchased and exchanged plane tickets twice but keep getting delayed in my return to Arizona by logistical concerns. I hope to return next week to my brother's house. I realize now I made a severe fauc pas by using his name, even just his first name in my post. As he is deceased (I still can't bring myself to type those words without tearful hesitation), I understand that it no longer matters in his case. But this is not a mistake I will make again. I'm still learning, and having a very hard time wrapping my mind around the stakes.

A number of you offered one to one conversation with me and I ignored pretty much everyone. That is a flaw in my part. After some soul searching I think my problem is that I do not feel deserving of any recognition whatsoever after the way I treated my brother and the forgiving kindness he offered me in return. I feel physically ill. You'll have to be patient with me.

My brother's lawyer accepted a dollar from me. He's my lawyer now, prospectively. So he's helping me arrange the Arizona estate. I'm sure the bill ultimately won't be cheap but I have discovered about $30k my brother left to me as part of the estate, so fees will be covered after the fact. I have been applying for jobs in the area on the off chance I might be able to afford to keep the house.

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I took 3 books from my brother's house to read and haven't had the chance to do more than skim them. They are 'An Invitation to The Great Awakening, by WWGIWGA,' 'Revolution Q, by Neon Revolt,' and 'Q and The Anons, by An Anon.'

My first request is this: Are these worth reading? Revolution Q is extremely dense and the book itself is heavy. These were the only books I found that seemed to be on exactly this subject but I have reason to believe he had more in the barn, which are now lost. I did not find a manifest or title list in the house but still have more searching to do.

My second request: I am overwhelmed with information. Every rabbit trail seems to go through endless analysis and it's making it hard for me, this late in the game I suppose, to develop a clear picture of how to know what is and is not real. Has anyone attempted to develop a Q wiki or information site? What resources can I use to catch myself up to speed, and what resources should I avoid?

It seems that good, informational resources and negligent disinformational resources need some sort of unified disclaimer post somewhere as guideposts to lead people to the right place and intentionally avoid the wrong places. But there are so many places... is there a list of Q-related books, podcasts, films and documentaries, thinkers, etc?

Oh yeah, last request. Am I a "Qanon'er" or an "Anon" or what? I am not sure what I am doing, and not sure what to call myself. Is there a guide to the vernacular?

P.S. I originally posted this without this part, but going over some of the comments I received I remembered to address something by request: several of you asked me if I would consider writing. There were a few mediums suggested. I owe you at least an answer to that: yes, I absolutely will. 100%. I owe you more than just a commitment though so it may take some time to prepare myself to give you something worthwhile. This may finally be where I use my philosophy degree for something potent and important.