Growing up in Nevada in the 70’s-90’s coupled with many cultural influences along with family life. Before I was 11 I was in two foster homes and was very malnourished.

This is not a pity party it is a testament of God and other people.

With the correct up upbringing I could have been a nasa scientist, my Grandma was practically one before nasa was nasa.

I have been fascinated by how things are connected. The rainbow is comms by God showing man there is information in the air to behold.

None the less with my upbringing the intent was for me to become a criminal.. while young I learned to be more inverted due to nature of my life. Not many are crossed eyed Jewish people that are dirt poor and at one point went to school with battery acid on his pants in the groin area and the nurse puts Bobby pins and sends the kid back to class while the kids legs are burning and is embarrassed so wraps his jacket around his waist to cover his humility.

Mom spilled battery acid on my jeans and thought it was water and told me they would dry.

Things like this makes even a kid critically think. I turned to Jesus and today I have what I prayed for. This is why I want to weak because I knew much torment. However without that torment I would not be who I am and yet I still believe I am worthless to culture because culture is sick. I gave up being bitter when I was a child and learned to see people are very capable of evil knowingly, but I understand it is human nature and I also learned to love people instead of being the victim.

Very few are cursed like me and that is a good thing. The question is maybe I went thru exactly what is required for me to Love God and people even though in real life I am very much not wanting to be any sort of leader.