I married when I was 36 as well, I'm not cruel enough to do that to myself again or bring that kinda baggage to a relationship with a good innocent girl who doesn't lie or cheat. I'm also a recovering alcoholic who could relapse at any moment destroying any relationship. Maybe with a decade of sobriety under my belt I'll meet a good one in my fifties but I don't have any business chasing women right now. I appreciate your encouragement and wishful thinking though fren. God will put me where I need to be in life, no sense trying to pursue something given my poor judgment in the past.