I was directed to a discussion on Free Will vs. God's Will on Badlands Media, felt the enormity of the hand of God upon me, felt an enormous religious experience, and though I play ukulele (but suck at songwriting), I was compelled into a long vivid improvised song on the ukulele about God's grace through Jesus.

I don't know how else to explain what happened to me, but I felt like the revelation of the Lord was upon me and through God's power, I was compelled to just burst into something approaching a hymn.

This was the first Easter I've spent religiously, as opposed to the youthful thing of getting sick on chocolate, and I abstained from sexual relations despite the urge, just as I did meat on Good Friday. I know that I still give into my urges, but I made a concious choice not to do it over the Easter period. What good is it if I give up meat, the flesh of an animal but don't give up on my own flesh?

The timing of the eclipse was strange, that although I had completely forgotten it, God made his presence deeply and personally known in that moment.

I'm not sure what the Eclipse represents in terms of various religions, or in terms of the Deep State's Masonic Egyptian mysteries, but we can all admit that we've seen either projections of fear and madness, or projections of Christ and the Rapture.

Since the Deep State can only project their own fear and anxiety over events these days, rather than control people into being afraid on their behalf, I wonder if there is crossover between predictions of Christ's return, and their predictions of chaos and panic?

That is, are they admitting their fear OVER Christ coming, but the projection is just noise for the normies to hide the signal?

Regardless of Deep State narrative plots, all I can think about is that lately, and everything in my life seems to be pointing me in this direction, the direction of Christ.

It's terrifying, yet completely positive. More and more (though I still slip and am not always righteous, except through Christ who continues to guide me), I find my life being guided by Christ.

I'm finding that more and more, my free will is aligning with God's will, and though I don't speak to set myself above others or preach from the rooftops to be heard in my praying, I just wanted to communicate this deep intensity that is occurring in my life.

Since finding Christ, and doing my best to follow his teachings, even though I am sometimes too quick to anger and can be self-righteous sometimes, I have found a beautiful Godly woman who encourages my faith, who wants to marry me in the eyes of God, who lifts me up and doesn't tear me down.

I am not saying "Do Christ's work and you will always get a tangible reward on Earth", I am saying that when you turn your heart to Christ, God provides what we need to continue growing in our relationship with Him, through Christ, and He does bless us. We are blessed for our honest commitment to Him.

That is, we are blessed because we do His will without any desire for self-service or personal gain outside of building up treasures in Heaven. That blessing can show up as things that multiply your happiness, like a Good Woman, but that too is a spiritual gift as a Good Woman or Man entering in your life, and building a life together, is God bringing us back to the Garden.

I was thinking about my girlfriend wanting to homeschool, wanting to grow our own food, and I realized that God in his grace for a filthy but repentant sinner like myself, is taking us back to the Garden of Eden.

I pray for more Wisdom, and the ability to communicate clearly. I feel like my meaning and sentiment gets lost in all my words.

I just mean that walking towards Christ takes free will. We are given free will in hopes that we choose the better way. Our blessings and happiness come from.our relationship with God.

Anything we are blessed with, be that food, water, love etc. are not causes of happiness, but can multiply the happiness within your heart, and THAT is a blessing.

Happiness isn't dependent on food. Are all well-fed people happy? Happiness isn't dependent on water, are all quenched people happy?

I finally understand the idea of living water. The woman at the well.

We are all the woman at the well.

I just feel like I have found such deep strength, clarity, courage, and peace, because I began my walk in Christ, and I wanted to know if anybody else has had such vivid experiences lately?

What is your testimony of Christ? Did anybody else experience such vividness through this last year? What about during the eclipse?