I posted here previously about my hardships.
Ya'll, I'm working a full time job and a part time job to make ends meet. I'm gone from 7 am until 8-9 pm. By the time I get home my child is getting ready for bed (having spent the day with her Mom). She wants to play with me. It crushes me. She asks to stay up and play games with me and occasionally I do, but it ultimately wipes me out. Usually I have to get home, eat my food, take a shower, go to bed within 30-40 minutes.
I am so burned out.
If she asks to play, at least 50% of the time I say yes because I of course love her and want to spend time with her and I know she needs that. But when I do, it adds even more exhaustion to my plate. I feel like I never have any time to myself - maybe a few hours on a Sunday. We always spend time on the weekends. I should mention that she's extremely needy and often it's like "What? We just went to the water park two days ago and had the whole day together!" I don't know what more to do. I feel like I can't make her happy. I can't make myself less exhausted. Can't make enough money. This economy sucks.
I keep praying, keep leaning on God, keep meditating, keep listening to scripture, read scripture with her, ... I dont know what more to do. I don't even know how i'm going to make it through this work week, honestly. I keep falling to my knees in prayer. God please pull me out of this or give me the wisdom to learn what you're trying to show me. Please pray. Sigh.
Do you have any IT skills? Even beginning IT is much better paying than more than half the jobs out there, but it requires work. You can get an IT certification very fast and basically beg for an entry position, as long as you are under 40. The IT industry is AGEIST (maybe all are?), and they shade, backbite, collude against and oppress/suppress those over 40, even if they are 10x the IT expert as the young people. (I know this by firsthand experience)
Entry Nursing however pays even better and it doesn't require even 1/3 of the brainpower that IT has you use. And you can be old. There may be a weekend way to do nursing, but it will take a long time and that cuts into your kids time even more.
Maybe you can get a partner in a similar situation and share expenses. Doesn't have to be romantic, can be friends
You could do entry IT for a couple of years and if you like it stay, but if you don't the you will have greatly freed up time to study nursing and go into that (while still having time for your child). You won't be outsourcing nursing for a very long time, but IT you might. It's already happening with AI.