Please pray. Please, please pray. For my mental and emotional health. She just very quickly emptied out everything from the closet. My heart is just ... crushed.
Sorry I keep posting about all this stuff on here. I don't know where else to go to get prayer or healing.
Time to man up.
Looks like it's finally real.
Edit: F this. I'm tired of feeling sad about this shit, ya'll. F it. By the way when she did this I didn't even give it an ounce of energy. Which was different. I need to stop putting so much care on all this and let God handle it. Also, I might feel like this cause I just pumped weights for 30 minutes and listened some upbeat rock music. That'll do it.
Edit 2: And F this little u/KrisAngeln who was too afraid to post it publicly and wants to message me saying I'm a nonstarter and a cuck and that he hopes my wife gives my kids a different dad. F you bro for your lack of compassion - cant even post it publicly? I hope you don't go through multiple family suicides like I did. If you did, you'd know what the f*** pain feels like.
Anyway - I agree with a lot of the messages here. Focusing on myself and my kids now. I'm done. This will be my last sob story (I'm not saying I won't ask for prayers, though).
everyone saying “man up” or “move on” likely has not felt the pain. I understand it’s difficult - I was divorced 25 years ago from an abusive marriage and I still cannot listen to No Doubt “don’t speak” without getting teared up. You need to take the time to grieve and reflect. You need a support group or maybe a therapist -NO PILLS and you need family. Indulge in a hobby, or a passion and work though it. If you don’t it will come out in ways that are destructive. Much love
I have no family, brother. My parents are narcissistic , self-centered folks. They could care less about what I'm going through. I have no one to turn to and lean on. I think a support group is a great idea, I just don't know where to find it just yet. Probably need to check out a few churches and see if I can find a small group to fit into. And you're right, it's extremely difficult. There are no words to measure the pain.
Many church groups do have their own support groups, as well. And some of them do a darned good job. Sometimes you'll find them under "grief recovery." It can help the kids, too. You can call a few of the larger churches in your area to see if they offer that. Many also have groups for men to get together and share, and to help hold each other accountable. I can tell you from personal experience, they can become like your family, too. Most people did not have ideal childhoods. At the very least, you can make some new friends. And some may even become as close as brothers to you. There are a lot of good, understanding people out there. It's what I love so much about our country. So, don't be afraid to put yourself out there, too.