Please pray. Please, please pray. For my mental and emotional health. She just very quickly emptied out everything from the closet. My heart is just ... crushed.
Sorry I keep posting about all this stuff on here. I don't know where else to go to get prayer or healing.
Time to man up.
Looks like it's finally real.
Edit: F this. I'm tired of feeling sad about this shit, ya'll. F it. By the way when she did this I didn't even give it an ounce of energy. Which was different. I need to stop putting so much care on all this and let God handle it. Also, I might feel like this cause I just pumped weights for 30 minutes and listened some upbeat rock music. That'll do it.
Edit 2: And F this little u/KrisAngeln who was too afraid to post it publicly and wants to message me saying I'm a nonstarter and a cuck and that he hopes my wife gives my kids a different dad. F you bro for your lack of compassion - cant even post it publicly? I hope you don't go through multiple family suicides like I did. If you did, you'd know what the f*** pain feels like.
Anyway - I agree with a lot of the messages here. Focusing on myself and my kids now. I'm done. This will be my last sob story (I'm not saying I won't ask for prayers, though).
https://survivinginfidelity.com/ https://www.affairrecovery.com/
It sucks for everyone. There is a ton if information out there from loads of people with direct experience. All of our stories are unique and yet the same, in the macro/micro sort of way.
Look on the 1st link for "The 180". Basically, indifference to your spouse. Be careful "researching", it always triggers.
Hydrate (water)! Make sure your body is tired at the end of the day to help you get rest. Seek comfort, comfort food, sunrises, sunsets... Scale and perspective.
You can never change/fix the past. It sounds simple but so much of our remorse is based on "if only".
Good luck, take care of yourself. When the oxygen masks drop from the ceiling, put yours on first so you're in a position to help those around you.