I've always had a side that leaned toward procrastination, but never to the point that I seem physically, mentally unable to take care of business.
For example, I still have a number of task not started, or unfinished that I need to complete to protect my property, family wellbeing, in the event of civil unrest.
I have done somethings, but I am very frustrated that I am having such difficulty getting key important task completed. "You fucking had the chance and failed them", is how I will feel if I don't complete these things.
I am hesitant to blame what might be pure sorry ass laziness on some outside force, but damn it man, I swear I seem to be under the influence of some bad mojo, and was just wondering if I was alone in this.
Yes! I wasn't planning on retiring at 65 but it's feels like my mind has stopped working and I now desperately want to retire. My husband has been saying for month he is exhausted and never felt this bad. He has had no energy and lacks all motivation to do anything.
So it's not just me.
I have a contract I am working with an old client. My billing rate is $160 per hour, and I can hardly make myself do the work. I try to motivate myself by thinking what additional survival stuff can buy, or things I can do with the extra money, and the fire just ain't there anymore.