I've always had a side that leaned toward procrastination, but never to the point that I seem physically, mentally unable to take care of business.
For example, I still have a number of task not started, or unfinished that I need to complete to protect my property, family wellbeing, in the event of civil unrest.
I have done somethings, but I am very frustrated that I am having such difficulty getting key important task completed. "You fucking had the chance and failed them", is how I will feel if I don't complete these things.
I am hesitant to blame what might be pure sorry ass laziness on some outside force, but damn it man, I swear I seem to be under the influence of some bad mojo, and was just wondering if I was alone in this.
So it's not just me.
I have a contract I am working with an old client. My billing rate is $160 per hour, and I can hardly make myself do the work. I try to motivate myself by thinking what additional survival stuff can buy, or things I can do with the extra money, and the fire just ain't there anymore.