I don't know what to do anymore. I have been unemployed for six months. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and I start a part time minimum wage job soon. So I cashed out my 401k to get a car to get to said job, but that broke down 3 days later.
My family thinks I am lazy so they don't want to give me rides anymore. I tried to walk to get groceries but that's exhausting, I have four young kids we need a lot of stuff.
I built my dream home on the family farm so I have almost no bills. But I don't know what to do. I just feel hopeless. If I move to a job I would have to pay thousands more a month for rent but I am broke. My husband is deeply depressed so he definitely can't help with anything. My family wants me to kick him out and marry a rich guy but that seems like a terribly immortal thing to do.
I've always believed that when God closes a door he opens a window but I can't find a way out of this.
Doctors normally say that moving your big muscles and getting out in the sunshine also helps a great deal with depression.
I'll tell you one thing that helped my chronic depression which I had when I was younger, facing up to the real truth about the world and how shitty it is actually helped my depression. I stopped focusing on myself and a lot of the cognitive dissonance which I had from subconsciously disbelieving the mainstream media disappeared.
Darn those electrical problems in cars.