I really don't know what to think of this.
As many of you know we've been in divorce discussions for over a year. She came to me an hour ago and said "Well, things are getting down to the wire ... and ... honestly... I dont want this ..."
And so I told her I will always love her and I meant all of my vows and that ultimately I just want her to be happy and I dont want her just deciding to be with me and then changing her mind again in a few weeks.
She says that she was thinking that way because of just how hard everything has been on us over the last few years. And as I told her, through sickness and in health, through rich and poor.
She then told me , laughingly, "will you take me back?"
She then proceeded to tell me she wants me to move in with them when they move in the coming weeks. I was like "yeah but we've been sleeping in separate rooms for more than six months now?" and she said "well? we'd have to change that, obviously."
I quite honestly don't know how to take all of this. God got me into this kind of acceptance phase, if you will, and now she hits me with this. So now I'm mentally like, yeah, of course, I love her .... but why did God have me go down that road in the first place?
NO clue what I'm supposed to be doing or if she's going to just change her mind in the coming weeks. But I promised to keep you all updated.
And quite honestly, I really think this is because so many of you have been praying for me. I really do. God is making moves behind the scenes and I'm floored. Today has really honestly felt like I'm in a dream.
EDIT: WE ARE NO LONGER IN SEPARATE ROOMS. She's sleeping in the room with me tonight.
Ya'll... I dont even know what to say. Glory, glory, glory. Hallelujah, this is a true testimony of God's power.
Praise the Lord. Psalm 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 34:18 The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
I am so thankful and happy for you. Perhaps it isn't something that God was teaching you or making you to suffer through this heartache, but perhaps it was your wife. I think IMO that it is she who is/was searching for something in her life, a place or a void she cannot fill. Perhaps now is the time to have her join you in church and seek out our Lord together. THE FAMILY THAT PRAYS TOGETHER STAYS TOGETHER.
So enjoy this renewal of your love together. Take it slow and be the good man God made you become. You are a very patient and loving person and I did feel your pain for what you went through as we have all suffered the loss/rejection of a loved one at least once in our lives. Love her like there will be no tomorrow and show her everyday. God bless you and may you both have many many joyous years together.
Thank you friend. I love this verse too, thanks for sharing it.