I really don't know what to think of this.
As many of you know we've been in divorce discussions for over a year. She came to me an hour ago and said "Well, things are getting down to the wire ... and ... honestly... I dont want this ..."
And so I told her I will always love her and I meant all of my vows and that ultimately I just want her to be happy and I dont want her just deciding to be with me and then changing her mind again in a few weeks.
She says that she was thinking that way because of just how hard everything has been on us over the last few years. And as I told her, through sickness and in health, through rich and poor.
She then told me , laughingly, "will you take me back?"
She then proceeded to tell me she wants me to move in with them when they move in the coming weeks. I was like "yeah but we've been sleeping in separate rooms for more than six months now?" and she said "well? we'd have to change that, obviously."
I quite honestly don't know how to take all of this. God got me into this kind of acceptance phase, if you will, and now she hits me with this. So now I'm mentally like, yeah, of course, I love her .... but why did God have me go down that road in the first place?
NO clue what I'm supposed to be doing or if she's going to just change her mind in the coming weeks. But I promised to keep you all updated.
And quite honestly, I really think this is because so many of you have been praying for me. I really do. God is making moves behind the scenes and I'm floored. Today has really honestly felt like I'm in a dream.
EDIT: WE ARE NO LONGER IN SEPARATE ROOMS. She's sleeping in the room with me tonight.
Ya'll... I dont even know what to say. Glory, glory, glory. Hallelujah, this is a true testimony of God's power.
Honestly this is how I've felt going through my current health troubles. At the start I was wondering, "Why am I going through this? What does God want me to get out of this?" And truly the suffering was hard, I felt awful. But when I got to my lowest I reached out to God and said, "I give everything to you, I surrender to you. I have faith that I will be healed in YOUR time, not mine. I'm willing to let go, so please promise to always be there to guide me and hold my hand through the good and bad."
And now that I've given full control to Him I truly feel free and feel like my body is finally starting to heal. It will be a long road but I know that my Lord will be there with me every step.
We cannot lose hope. With God there is ALWAYS hope. PRAY unceasingly! God hears your cries and your sorrows, and He WILL comfort you. Glory be that your wife wants to stay! We will continue praying for her, you, and your relationship.