I find that many esoterics do, in fact, believe in God in Christ, Crowley is NOT one of them. I enjoy the Christian mystics, the ones who were considered heretics, the gnostics, the gospel of Mary Magdalene, and got seriously into Gurdjieff in the 80's. I also never abandoned the Bible, but I know there were many men and women of God who were deep thinkers and had themselves mystical experiences. There is no such thing as good magic though, magic tries to give a human God like powers, so does Satan, that's what the serpent in the Garden was about.