I know how you feel. I think we've all been there, gaming in our heads the "what ifs" of so many scenarios, including what if "the plan" is to sucker us into our demise. Every person needs to game every scenario and have their own plan for their family, just in case. YOU are the backup plan for your family. It's up to you to flesh out what that is and be prepared for it. I have huge trust in the Q team but mainly I just trust God and pray for the best possible outcome. If you're prepared (especially mentally), then you can sit back and watch this crazy movie with your popcorn and cozy blanket for the entertainment that it is!