I had a health scare recently with my oldest son. He is 100% okay but the incident really had me thinking about how often I thank God for his mercy and kindness.
As a brief backstory to what I thought would be a quick post: I grew up a sinner, and around the same year Q came into my life(2017) is when I decided to go up to the front of the church and ask God for his forgiveness. After a VERY direct conversation with God about my fidelity issues with my girlfriend, I did the unthinkable(in my mind) and told her that I had not been faithful to her when we first met. Girlfriend did not take it well, but she also did not leave me [Thank you God for giving my (now) wife the strength and compassion to stay with me]. What happened next was a ridiculous amount of "energy" transfer between me and the sky. I felt a beam of energy from my toes to my head and shooting out to the sky above. I asked a preacher a few years later what that was and he said the Holy Spirit was entering me.
Long story short, I never feel worthy of his amazing grace. It is an incredible feeling to have my health, my wellbeing, my needs all taken care of by God's grace and divine love. My children laugh, my dogs wag their tail, my flowers bloom. Thank you God for this life. I am trying every day to become a better version of myself to honor you.
Thank you for waking me up to the realities around me. Thank you for this community that is here to help me process everything that is happening. Thank you for the opportunity to be a part of something greater than myself. Amen.
That is good news for sure! You are not alone and God let you know it. I am glad your son is doing well!
I have been through a similar experience recently. Im not particularly adept at timid explanations but there is now a chord that resonates within me that feels anchored in harmony whereas before it felt tethered and I suffered intense loathing and resentment toward my gifts as a victim of my own choice.
The intensity of vibes is increasing and the only thing I can attribute my newfound marital harmony is that the level of joy in my life is exponentially increased through the test God put us through.
As a result of God pushing me into and pulling out of the fire I now have a greater breadth of understanding and really, Probably, more humbled than anyone would care to fafo..
The significance is that i had to go through a humbling experience to regain the forgone knowledge of humanity and restore it to a fuller radiance with the aid of the entire cosmos. There are certain perspectives that lead to destruction and those paths are not particularly well heeded nor marked.
Without the feeling of displacement or threat of loss of family I would never be able to restore the divine consciousness to my family unit, as didactic alpha numerical language necessarily and equivalently seeks.
This knowledge is something that 2nd or 3rd graders should learn but by 4th its too late for the time being. Its almost impossible that they would be taught a year after that but there is a small segment in 6th that can learn but only after the year+ blue pill has worked its way in digestion. The bile builds a lot of back and forth traversing in the tubes, often taking up to senior year or the 12th grade. From then on waking up in rebirthed feelings of love and harmony at what feels like 15 minute intervals, give or take 2-3 . So it is manageable, this incredible force of Gods love. The parlance and preservation of victory are modestly available to all.
When i was a cocky 18 year old I could never have seen the greatness because my family unity became inverted and self destructed without recognizing God.
Since then I have wandered in search of answers outside myself and God led me on a different path that provided questions that I could answer by seeking within. Unfortunately the level of aloneness and secrecy that is experienced reduces that joy to a region of the mind that could bring about the trait of insanity in scarcely an instant.
I beheld another lesson, one that I firmly walk with, and will carry with me through life. and that one which is, in all of us, God provides the answers to, and that desire to walk tall and keep a place for Him in the heart is what gets me out of bed every day to show His unending love through discipleship and parenting.
I witnessed a beautiful sunrise yesterday with my daughters. Gorgeous yellow and red hues and fading into deep blue as it crossed the highest point of glory in the sky. Its very easy to feel overwhelmed but what I remember most about my summer vacation is that just when it seemed my life was off the winners platform, God said Forget! Die to it this day and maybe we can still get you in the next heat, but you gotta keep that fire lit, fam!
Thanks to all the amazing anons who would never reveal themselves by remaining faithful along the way. I fervently pray for your success and am so grateful that you have been there to keep the love and hope for humanity alive and help me learn so much. I will always feel a great debt to this board and its contributing players. Live and love peaceably, make yuge families and win bigly!