C.S. Lewis:

"When a man who has been perverted from his youth and taught that cruelty is the right thing, does some tiny little kindness, or refrains from some cruelty he might have committed, and thereby, perhaps, risks being sneered at by his companions, he may, in God's eyes, be doing more than you and I would do if we gave up life itself for a friend."

"It is as well to put this the other way round. Some of us who seem quite nice people may, in fact, have made so little use of a good heredity and a good upbringing that we are really worse than those whom we regard as fiends. Can we be quite certain how we should have behaved if we had been saddled with the psychological outfit, and then with the bad upbringing, and then with the power, say, of Himmler?"

That's the question that scares me. As Lewis puts it: "One man may be so placed that his anger sheds the blood of thousands, and another so placed that however angry he gets he will only be laughed at."

What sins have I committed in my heart that did not in reality rise to murder, genocide, or sexual abuse simply because I had not the power to carry my thoughts through to action. When all is stripped away, revealed, what does God see?