If that's your mindset then that is all you're going to get and I promise she will make your life into a nightmare for however long she is a part of it.
Dude you need to put the internet down for a while. Seriously go fucking do jujitsu or something so you can get out of the house and get regular exposure and social interaction with other people. You really sound seriously depressed and you really need to go be proactive and do something to improve the quality of your life. You need some kind of social outlet bro because sitting alone on those fucking red pill YouTube channels and forums will fuck you up mentally
If that's your mindset then that is all you're going to get and I promise she will make your life into a nightmare for however long she is a part of it.
Dude you need to put the internet down for a while. Seriously go fucking do jujitsu or something so you can get out of the house and get regular exposure and social interaction with other people. You really sound seriously depressed and you really need to go be proactive and do something to improve the quality of your life. You need some kind of social outlet bro because sitting alone on those fucking red pill YouTube channels and forums will fuck you up mentally