Hi friends, I am struggling with my sin of Pornography. It krept back up on me after a few years of doing "fine" i need to find the root of this issue. The problem is, im worn down. I want to be obedient, yet i keep falling to my flesh. Whats also difficult is im same sex attracted. While I wont go back to that life, that has still manifested in the form of watching pornography (mostly gay but in the end its all sin so it doesnt matter what type) but im asking for prayer. That God guide me to the root of this symptom, im so broken and I know i can only turn to God. I am just so weak and would love my brothers and sisters in Christ to be in prayer along side me. I can be very harsh on myself when i mess up. I was the kid to throw myself in time out from time to time. It feels like im doing the same thing today, God is telling me dont keep doing it but all is good and im saying no i have to sit in the corner.
Thank you all for reading this. I just needed to get this off my chest and have some people in prayer over it all. Love you all and may the Lord bless you and keep you.
“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” Matthew 26:41
Jesus replied, “Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. 12 For there are eunuchs who were born that way, and there are eunuchs who have been made eunuchs by others—and there are those who choose to live like eunuchs for the sake of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept it.” Matthew 19
Everyone is struggling with something. Challenges shaped us and make us grow quickly, more so than people who are already perfect and have perfect lives. If it's not sexuality, it's drugs, or food, or any type of vices. Just be grateful what you're dealing with is less than others. Just do your best. It's all about discipline afterall. Everyone has their shortcomings and look at the people God uses in The Bible, especially in the Old Testament. Everyone of them has issues. God sees you're trying and He will never stop loving you.
Just do your best. Ask God for forgiveness. Get up and try again. Tomorrow is a brand new day.
God bless you always.
P.S My nephew is gay. He's got huge father issue as he is absent from his life. He's also an atheist so nobody can say anything to him. We just pray for him. Idk maybe it's subconscious a need for father's love and approval. Just a tip: Everytime I think of something stupid I say "Get behind me, Satan!" and stay busy, cos sometimes maybe they're not even your own thoughts :O.. we live in a supernatural world and it can be scary. Take up the whole armor of God.
Good advice