Hi friends, I am struggling with my sin of Pornography. It krept back up on me after a few years of doing "fine" i need to find the root of this issue. The problem is, im worn down. I want to be obedient, yet i keep falling to my flesh. Whats also difficult is im same sex attracted. While I wont go back to that life, that has still manifested in the form of watching pornography (mostly gay but in the end its all sin so it doesnt matter what type) but im asking for prayer. That God guide me to the root of this symptom, im so broken and I know i can only turn to God. I am just so weak and would love my brothers and sisters in Christ to be in prayer along side me. I can be very harsh on myself when i mess up. I was the kid to throw myself in time out from time to time. It feels like im doing the same thing today, God is telling me dont keep doing it but all is good and im saying no i have to sit in the corner.
Thank you all for reading this. I just needed to get this off my chest and have some people in prayer over it all. Love you all and may the Lord bless you and keep you.
Rebuke any possible evil spirits. Say it out loud in Jesus' name. This helped me in a time of great need and it worked. Think about finding an online community with others who struggle like you. Or a sex-addicts anonymous meeting in your community maybe?
I will pray for you all week fren. For strength, for clarity, for peace. You're better than your desires and addictions. You are a FIGHTER and you WILL WIN. Here is food for your soul. It's part of a large playlist I created a few months ago during my struggles.
Oh and one of the greats for spiritual battle that always gives me strength:
Psalm 91
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler
and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his pinions,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.
You will not fear the terror of the night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness,
nor the destruction that wastes at noonday.
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
You will only look with your eyes
and see the recompense of the wicked.
Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place—
the Most High, who is my refuge—
no evil shall be allowed to befall you,
no plague come near your tent.
For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways.
On their hands they will bear you up,
lest you strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread on the lion and the adder;
the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot.
“Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;
I will protect him, because he knows my name.
When he calls to me, I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will rescue him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”