Hi friends, I am struggling with my sin of Pornography. It krept back up on me after a few years of doing "fine" i need to find the root of this issue. The problem is, im worn down. I want to be obedient, yet i keep falling to my flesh. Whats also difficult is im same sex attracted. While I wont go back to that life, that has still manifested in the form of watching pornography (mostly gay but in the end its all sin so it doesnt matter what type) but im asking for prayer. That God guide me to the root of this symptom, im so broken and I know i can only turn to God. I am just so weak and would love my brothers and sisters in Christ to be in prayer along side me. I can be very harsh on myself when i mess up. I was the kid to throw myself in time out from time to time. It feels like im doing the same thing today, God is telling me dont keep doing it but all is good and im saying no i have to sit in the corner.
Thank you all for reading this. I just needed to get this off my chest and have some people in prayer over it all. Love you all and may the Lord bless you and keep you.
I will try to keep in touch (trying to focus on my relationship with God and not spending hours here refreshing in hopes something finally happening lol). Thank you for the prayer. Yes God was there prompting because I need the prayer more than advice haha. But over all I feel comforted tonight, I know its not my works, but boy do I forget to remind myself. Psalms 69-71 is the prayer I ended up finding for myself in The Word. I share not to boast of myself, im so broken, yet thats where God works best. I share because I want others to know they arent alone in any struggle (unique in your story not your struggle) and I pray someday God get me to a place where I can go to that community and start bringing them to know God, if repentance and acceptance comes from that, amen, but if not thats between them and God. Idk what the journey looks like. All I know is what it looks like to obey my King.
Yes absolutely spend time with Jesus above all. Doesn't have to be all the time. Just get back to me as you feel led. I will be praying for you so it helps to know how to pray. These things are every progressing so prayer needs change as the Lord reveals things to you.
Sounds like you have a good understanding of things. Our pain often becomes our platform. Keep thinking in terms of how this can help other. Jesus definitely wants to use that. U can speak into this situation far better then I because I'm an outside looking in. I can only relate in the spirit and sometimes people see a distance with that. Where as u live it.
God bless fren keep fighting the good fight and laying it all before the foot of the cross
Together through Christ we have endless potential