Hi friends, I am struggling with my sin of Pornography. It krept back up on me after a few years of doing "fine" i need to find the root of this issue. The problem is, im worn down. I want to be obedient, yet i keep falling to my flesh. Whats also difficult is im same sex attracted. While I wont go back to that life, that has still manifested in the form of watching pornography (mostly gay but in the end its all sin so it doesnt matter what type) but im asking for prayer. That God guide me to the root of this symptom, im so broken and I know i can only turn to God. I am just so weak and would love my brothers and sisters in Christ to be in prayer along side me. I can be very harsh on myself when i mess up. I was the kid to throw myself in time out from time to time. It feels like im doing the same thing today, God is telling me dont keep doing it but all is good and im saying no i have to sit in the corner.
Thank you all for reading this. I just needed to get this off my chest and have some people in prayer over it all. Love you all and may the Lord bless you and keep you.
if i may... the root of this must go back to an early time... something that happened that caused you to "open the door" for this to take hold. Prayerfully search out that incident/ event...forgive yourself, ask God to forgive you and free you (from that moment). The REAL key to it all... "enter His Gates with THANKSGIVING, enter His Courts with Praise"... start your day that way... idleness drives towards the perverse in life. Our minds are the battleground, and it plays out in ourselves and our lives. Change your perspective, change your life. Start your day the right way, and guard each day against the idleness that leads to temptation... most find something to focus on. WHEN YOU STUMBLE... for this reason, Christ side was pierced - and out came BLOOD AND WATER... His blood paid the price for you and the waters of repentence (a turning away from -- a concerted effort and intent to turn away from). What is the whole point to life??? to know Him - to be His friend because we choose to be - that is the whole point to man. spend more time talking with, learning of, getting to know Christ (another key - HE isn't what the religious leaders make Him out to be... He hung out with the less desireables of society, and He lived simply - BUT HE WAS NOT POOR, FAR FROM IT ACTUALLY (that is why the Roman soldiers cast lots for His clothes). My prayer for you is simple, that you walk in the Grace of God, find the forgiveness of Christ, search out the root of the injury that opened the door - ask Our Father to forgive you and repair the harm (When we ask, His answers are yes and Amen (if you ask according to His Word and ways)). I pray for His will perfectly revealed in you life and His will be done.