Hi friends, I am struggling with my sin of Pornography. It krept back up on me after a few years of doing "fine" i need to find the root of this issue. The problem is, im worn down. I want to be obedient, yet i keep falling to my flesh. Whats also difficult is im same sex attracted. While I wont go back to that life, that has still manifested in the form of watching pornography (mostly gay but in the end its all sin so it doesnt matter what type) but im asking for prayer. That God guide me to the root of this symptom, im so broken and I know i can only turn to God. I am just so weak and would love my brothers and sisters in Christ to be in prayer along side me. I can be very harsh on myself when i mess up. I was the kid to throw myself in time out from time to time. It feels like im doing the same thing today, God is telling me dont keep doing it but all is good and im saying no i have to sit in the corner.
Thank you all for reading this. I just needed to get this off my chest and have some people in prayer over it all. Love you all and may the Lord bless you and keep you.
You are forgiven and loved unconditionally. Remember that always. Put your mind into Gods Word hard. We all get tempted by our own sins and nobody in here is sinless contiually. Only Christ got that achieved. We wait for his return so we can be fully delivered. Focus on tje Son not the sin. Ill be praying for you. For there is therefore no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus. God has saved you and he knows your heart. Our minds dont change when we get saved that is part of the work we do. Go hard ro the word my Brother. God loves you. Enjoy that.
Thank you. Yes. Im remaining in The Word and I still worship Him as always. I find myself singing out songs I know at night, praising Him. I know im forgiven and im not expected to be perfect, I have been in my word more than ever before, with intentionality behind my reading now too. I just have to work on not beating myself up when God says "thats why I sent my son" i just have to dust off and get to work. Thats the hard part haha. Feel much better today and am not going to let my moments of failure keep me from being close to God. I appreciate your kind message.